"No, lah Rowena," came her reassuring reply, "You look better now, last time you used to look (fills cheeks with air and uses her hands to shape a rounder version of me), now you're so much better looking."
"Really?" I ask her, quietly, almost in a whisper, (simply because I am definitely not reassured and I did not believe the image in the mirror, looked any less different than before).
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Isn't that always the case? We women are never (at ease/satisfied/happy) underline your desired choice of answer with our bodies. NEVER. My case is rather pathetic as I really do put some effort into it... REALLY. Don't laugh, I am quite sad now.
So much so, I decided to run a few observations as to why, (despite working my body to wits end) I never seem to lose weight effectively.
I BLAME HERITAGE.
Yes, its all in the genes. I do have reasoning as to why I say this. I observe. I shall now compare the Indian and the Chinese body because, I haven't observed the Malays yet. I am not racist. Just selectively observant. They're usually quite decently dressed. So, we're talking heritage, right?
Chinese bodies.
Chinese bodies are divided into two.
Body type 1.
- THEY'RE FREAKING SLIM!
Not an ounce of extra fat, and you're like, "Where are those yellow, squishy hell-givers?" They look up and down themselves, look at you and say, "Got meh?"
Body type 2.
- or they're plump but evened out.
Yes, there are plump Chinese girls, shocked? But they still look really good... and they have no stretch marks... not one! Maybe got lar.. since I don't observe them in their birthday suits.. only in shopping malls.. I am not hamsap lar!
Time to bring out our Madras friends.
Indian bodies.
Guess, what? They're also divided into two.
Body type 1
-THEY'RE FREAKING SLIM
Oh boy! Slim to the bone. And when you ask, "Don't' you have those yellow, squishy hell-givers?"
They look up and down themselves, look at you and say, "Yenna di paeseringae?"
Body type 2
-or, listen carefully, their calves and elbow to fingers will be slim, the other parts? PLUMP IT UP BABY!!!
Which makes, of course, slimming down and finding outfits a hassle and a downright chore. But, WAIT , hold it. STOP RIGHT THERE. They have something nobody can deny. CURVES. The stuff guys want to grab on to but can't cause they're expensive, yup... them curves go well on those bodies.
Conclusion: We're all according to God's design, so learn it, live it, LOVE it.
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I decided, I must find some comparison, to prove my loss of weight a fact or fiction. I grab my saree blouse, pop it over my arm and feel the space. Was there SPACE! I happily show my mum, flagging about the change in size of my arm... she, busy on the phone, simply looks past me, serious faced, a simple nod. Acknowledgement. Rejoicing with me.
